||[24 Dec 2000|11:20pm]
In Phoenix now - spent the last three days on the coast near San Francisco at an old-style English inn playing darts and sitting in front of the fire and watching the waves crash and spending time with Michael and the family....it was fantastic and Christmas-y. We were in room three and carved our names in the exposed wood beam, like so many couples before...
Michael has gone back home for Christmas and I'm here in the desert for a few more days. We postponed Christmas until tomorrow night.
(little explanation - the German roots of our family have caused us to traditionally do presents and merriment on Christmas Eve night, so I feel very awkward opening presents in the morning. I'm used to dinner, then candles an music and the roaring fire and presents after. Anything else feels awkward. So due to our heavy travel, we're doing it tomorrow.)
Confidentially, I'm lonely. I miss Michael. I hope he's having some semblance of cheer with his family. I just wish I could curl up next to him right now. I miss him. I hope he misses me, but I'm sure he's happy to have time to himself and to spend with others, for once.
I keep losing friends off my list, too. That's a bit saddening, but I guess I shouldn't complain. Things happen.
I hope you are all enjoying the respective holidays you choose to celebrate. I wish you good food, good company, and good cheer.
Thank you to those of you who've been so supportive and inspiring throughout the last year. It means more than I can express.